31 March 2011

sejak akhir2 ni.. klu aku terbau apa-apa jenis makanan yang aku tak gemar.. aku jadi loya dan tak lalu makan..
especially klu bau makanan tu sgt kuat..
contoh.. Kari.. dan Asam Pedas..

padahal dulu, asam pedas tu aku ske.. tapi skang, bler bau makanan tu kuat.. aku x jadi..
duk sebelah orang yg makan tu pun x bley.. ape kena ntah.. huhu

28 March 2011

this morning i woke up as usual to perform my morning prayer..
I guess, because i stay up a bit long last night to read the seerah of the prophet (peace be upon him), i was quite sleepy this morning..
so, after my fajr, i lay down on the bed and went to sleep unintentionally..
then i have a weird dream.. it almost seem so realistic as if i'm in that dream and i'm not even sleeping...

then my mum open my bedroom and woke me up.
it startled me seeing my mum early.. as usually when i'm off to work.. then i look at my phone time..

oh no!! im late for work.. its already 7.20am, and it took half an hour for me to get to my work place.. and i've not even wash myself yet..

so, i rushed things up and depart from my house at 7.45am..

because of the unusual morning, my day at work this morning was energize.. perhaps because of the push, i guess..

later in the afternoon.. i got a message from my mum..

my somewhat grandmother (my mum's aunt) pass away this morning..innalillahi wa innalillahi rajium

"" It is Allâh Who takes away the souls at the time of their death, and those that die not during their sleep. He keeps those (souls) for which He has ordained death and sends the rest for a term appointed.
Verily, in this are signs for a people who think deeply."[az-zumar(39):42]

now it trigger to me bout my morning..
i could have been the one whose time has come to leave this world..

its to remind me, my time will come soon..
the death is near..

no one can prevent it..

how will i use each day He bestow me the chance to live..

"Ya Allah hu Ya Rabbi, this humble servant bow down to you from the beginning of its life till the day it time has come to meet You. Alhamdulillah for all the blessings You keep on giving to me and my family. This humble and despicable servant request for Your continuous Guidance (hidayah) in everything that me & my family do. Do guide us to the truth path..Do not let us astray from the rightly path. we hope Your Pleasure (redha) is with us."

ya muqalibull qulub..
tsabit kulubbana ala deenik wa ala toátik..
wa ala dakwati'..

24 March 2011

seorang mukmin itu tidak akan menampakkan kesusahan dirinya kepada mukmin yang lain..

“Dan sungguh akan Kami berikan cobaan kepadamu, dengan sedikit ketakutan, kelaparan, kekurangan harta, jiwa dan buah-buahan. Dan berikanlah berita gembira kepada orang-orang yang sabar. .” (Al-Baqarah(2) : 155)
have we ever wonder why bees needle sting..?
producing the sweetest honey in it hive, its needle convey it otherwise..
the sweet endeavoring honey is in fact the best medcine for many kind of diseases.. its clearly stated in the kalamullah it self..

"And your Lord inspired the bees, saying: "Take you habitations in the mountains and in the trees and in what they erect. "Then, eat of all fruits, and follow the ways of your Lord made easy (for you)." There comes forth from their bellies, a drink of varying colour wherein is healing for men. Verily, in this is indeed a sign for people who think."(an-Nahl:68-69)

i) for every 'poison', there is a cure.. the bees needles sting, but it was stated in the Quran, for it, there's a medicine to it (honey) be it naturally produced or made in the lab by mankind.. (medcine).
ii) the goodness of eating fruits are conveyed here by Allah Taála hinted on the bees to eat 'all fruits' and at the same time follow / obey His order.. which means, one can't expect to gain the benefit of something by just following 1 rule if there is in fact 2 rule to gain for success..

"And when I am ill, it is He Who cures me; (80) "Who will cause me to die, and then to live (again); (81) "And Who, I hope will forgive me my faults on the Day of Judgment… (82) O my Lord! Bestow wisdom on me, and join me with the righteous; (83) "Grant me honourable mention on the tongue of truth among the latest (generations); (84) "Make me one of the inheritors of the Garden of Bliss;"(asy-Syu'ara(26))

for this i put my trust in Him..for the unbearable pain in my head.. i hope it'll cure my heart from the sickness of this world..
and for the day when i'll rise up once again after i moved on, i hope this sickness will be one of the reason for you to erase the sins i've done.. bet it intentionally or unintentionally..
put me then to be among the righteous one..

Grant me honorable mention on the tongue of truth among the latest (generations) & please make me one of the inheritors of the Garden of Bliss;.'

amin ya rabbal alamin..~
please hear me.. Ameen~
adey... why do i feel this way.. help me my Lord, to choose the decision..
to stay on or to raid it off.. huhu

given by my friend, sis this song.. luve it.. and luve her for it..

Come stop your crying
It will be all right
Just take my hand Hold it tight

I will protect you
from all around you
I will be here
Don't you cry

For one so small,
you seem so strong
My arms will hold you,
keep you safe and warm
This bond between us
Can't be broken
I will be here
Don't you cry

'Cause you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more

You'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be here in my heart, always

Why can't they understand
the way we feel
They just don't trust
what they can't explain
I know we're different but,
deep inside us
We're not that different at all

And you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more

Don't listen to them
'Cause what do they know
We need each other,
to have, to hold
They'll see in time
I know

When destiny calls you
You must be strong
I may not be with you
But you've got to hold on
They'll see in time
I know
We'll show them together

'Cause you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on,
Now and forever more

Oh, you'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be in my heart, always


16 March 2011

In the early online edition of the journal Biological Psychiatry, it was published that brain atrophy causes depression in multiple sclerosis patients

Reading this made me look back at my mri, after a couple of months suspected of having MS..

well, there are few lesions in my brain.. and yes, there's some at the place which was said to cause depression...

so, i must be depressed at that time because of the lesion attack here..

10 March 2011

2 weeks ago..
i went to the 'lab'to do my mRi scan..
and 2day got the result..

it wasnt bad in my opinion.. but the doc said, its not good
and suggested me for 2nd degree treatment..
which mean, a more risk treatment.. for cancer patients i think..

bcoz of the highly cost treatment, i was requested by my mum to get into ozzie..
as there are more treatment there compare to this country..


ya Rabbi.. my trust & faith lies in U..

08 March 2011

i think i can diagnosed my headache attack..

when i'm stressed on a thing on someone, the back of my head will start to pulse painfully..

and that what happen 2day..~

07 March 2011

i used to be caffeine addict..
a cup of coffee a day is a must (minimum)..
and back in those days, i can drink several cups of coffee and still sleep soundly..
and last year, my aim was to stop my coffee addiction after 6 years..
which was quite difficult at the beginning..
but by the end of last year, i manage to stop drinking coffee..
also avoid drinking chocolate drink as i found out chocolate also has caffiene in it..

until this evening.. i finally break my record.. by taking a cup of cuppucino..
i'll have to see whether i'm still immune to caffiene or not..
immune in a sense i can sleep peacefully and soundly without difficulty..

01 March 2011

if there is a glass ball in the palm of my hand..
then my body is as such the ball just crush when it land
if the rainbow race across after the rain..
then my soul that was once died, now feel to beats again..
in the darkness of the night,shine the gleaming moon..
and the sun rise high, why its now noon..