22 June 2007

Assalmy’km kucing helper di sebelah..
Lame benar dah x type kat ruangan ni..
Busy2..tu alasan lama!

Alhamdulillah, dah 3 exam paper habis..ader lagi 3..gambate
Di saat2 nk amik final sem ni, Allah telah banyak mengingatkan diriku untuk sentiasa mengingatiNya..

1. Tiket flight prob
2. Assignment non-stop until the week of swot-vac b4 finals..
3. Kehilangan basikal
4. Finals straight in a row..3 papers..yg tahap max tough.

Namun, bila memikirkan smua tu, diriku bersyukur kerana, antara byk2 insan di luar sana, Allah memilih untuk menguji ku..Adakah aku telah berjaya menjalani ujianNya..
Air mata mengalir tatkala kehilangan basikal, bukan kerana sedih basikal hilang, tetapi terharu terhadap ni’mat Allah.. Dia memilih untuk menguji ku, sedangkan basikal org lain pn ader probability kena curik sebab same2 kt luar..
N, di saan itu, ketenangan dalam hati diberi..org yg melihat diriku fikir aku sedih kerana kehilangan basikal..tetapi pada hakikatnya, diriku risau, adakah aku kan berjaya dalam ujiannya yg berterusan itu..

Tidak dinafikan, kesibukan 3papers in a row exam, aku dalam sedar x sedar telah abaikan tanggungjwb sebagai hambaNya, dan kepada makhluk2 hambaNya, yakni mereka yg berada di sekitar ku..
Jarang aku bersendirian denganNya kecuali di puncak malam..di mana kebanyakkan insan sudah lena dengan izinNya..
Namun, apakah cukup masa aku peruntukkan untukNya..
Dan paling terharu, apabila Dia memulangkan basikal ku..kini berada dlm bilik..menggantikan tempt ku sementara waktu..
Terima kasih Ya Allah..Syukurku kepadaMu tidak terhingga..
Dan senyuman yang menghiasi wajah, di salah erti kerann lega 3 paper dh hbs, kerana basikal diperolehi.. pada hakikatnya, gembira kerana Allah hadiahkan kepadaku nikmatNya tatkala hati bergolak, memikirkan paper exam keesokkan hari yg x habis study lagi.
Di saat itu, aku ketahui, Allah sentiasa bersamaku, mendengar kata hatiku, rintihan hati, pergolakkan jiwa..
Ya Allah, maafkan hambaMu ini, kerana tidak commitment terhdapMu pada hari ini..
Kan ku berusaha untuk peroleh redhaMu..Buka kanlah pintu rahmat Mu untuk ku..
Ya Allah,biarpun ku selalu meminta kepadaMu pelbagai macam ni’mat Mud an memberi padaMu milikMu sedikit, ku harap engkau tetapkan mendengar hajatku..
Ya Allah, Ya Rahman, Ya Rahim..
Bantulah rakan-rakan saudaraku dan aku dalam peperiksaan finals ini. Berikanlah kami kejayaan di dunia dan di akhirat.. Tidakkan kami jadikan alasan memikul beban da’wah mu untuk tidak berjaya dalam urusan dunia milikMu.. Inilah wasilah utama kami untuk menegakkan kebenaran agamaMu. Bantulah kami Ya Allah.. Apapun, hanya Engkau ketahui apa yg terbaik buat diri kami. Redha milikMu yang kami cari dan ingini..
Perkenankanlah permintaan ku ini Ya Ilahi..Ya Rab, Ya Alamin..

20 June 2007

20/6/07

bismilllah..with the name of Allah..Most Merciful Most Graceful

Today, 1 know, i have 1 more paper to go..
its not the end of a challenge..its in fact d beginning of a real challenge, test from Him..
These past 6 months has been a field of trial for me..Now i need to use all my experience, knowledge, stand i've gain this coming winter..
greater, more challenging situation..
The world is not bout u alone ysn..
u need to grow up fast, be matured in d way u think n d way u act.
No more babyish stuff
You're bout to enter 20++ not good to act like a kid.
how r u going to help to spread the truth..to become a Da'ie as u promised to Him if u're acting like a child, a toddler??

BE STRONG!!

Though the world may not perceive u as a significant role in the society, it doesn't matter, as u care for ur appearance/reputation in front of Allah..
Bukan keredhaan manusia yg perlu dikecapi, tetapi keredhaan Ilahi menjadi impian diri..

Ya Allah, telah Engkau kurniakan kepadaku kawan2 yang beriman, bertaqwa kepadaMu di sekelilingku. Kurniakanlah rahmat nikmatMu yang tidak terhingga kepada mereka dan keluarga mereka. Engkau berikan kasihMu, petunjukMu, pertolonganMu, melalui mereka. Terima kasih Ya Ilahi, hambaMu ini bersyukur teramat kepadaMu. Berikanlah hidayahMu kepadaku, ahli keluargaku, rakan2 seperjuanganku, mereka yang mengucapkan kalimah syahadah..janganlah palingkan hati kami setelah Engkau beri petunjuk kepada kami. Ya Allah, ampunkanlah dosa2 ku, dosa kedua ibu bapaku. Kembalikanlah kami di sisiMu dalam keadaan kami yang paling beriman dan bertaqwa kepadaMu.ku pinta padaMu, agar jauhkan kami dari azab siksaan nerakaMu, kami pinta rahmatMu yg menyelamatkan.
Ya Allah, bantulah saudara2 ku di negara2 yang ditindas, di Palestine, Iran dll.. Tabahkanlah hati mereka menghadapi kufar2 tu.. Berikanlah ketenangan dan kesabaran kepada mereka. Berikanlah kesedaran pada umat islam yg lain berada di seluruh dunia untuk bangkit, menyelamatkan saudara2 kami di sana. Ya Allah, Yang Maha Pengasih, Maha Pemurah, Maha Pengampun..
padaMu sahaja aku berharap dan mohon pertolongan. Perkenankanlah permintaan hambaMu yang lemah ini

11 June 2007

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YSN!
The world does not need weak muslim.
Wake up!
Work hard!
Gain His

Someone always ask me, is it enough for u juz to sleep 3 hours a day! Not 1, not 2, but several people. Is not that i want all people to look up upon me becoz of my capability to strive through the day without 'enough' rest.
Its totally NOT!

I once heard, a hadith, during my pre-uni preparation in intec, there's a companion of the prophet narrated that 3 hours of sleeping is enough, provided u sleep well through it.

n, i used to disbelieve that i would ever able to sleep just 3 hours a day.
Nonetheless, since my ilm'gathering course in melb, i have to believe that it really is..(pebenda aku mengarut ni..haih)

The workload of my course in addition to being a loner in that class (only muslimah), i tend to be almost 24-7 busy..its like 24 hours is not enough.. But i cant ask more since He knows best. i just can ask Him to bless me with His time..And alhamduillah, He grants it.

After several 'practice' of sleeping 3-4 hours per day, i cant sleep more than that. i hope He doesn't take this ni'mat away from me..

Okay2, need to continue study!
Exam is d day after tomorow.. pebenda pun x study..
Maafkan aku Allah..kerana mengabaikan tanggungjawab aku sebagai khalifahMu..sebagai saudara kawan2ku.. sebagai anak kepada kedua orang tuaku.
Give me strength O My Lord, The Mighty One..
Aminn..perkenankanlah doa hambamu yang lemah ini

i accept whatever He wills

Alhamdulillah,
i word, i need to talk bout it again n again..
i know, some may look n me n think, she's not taking the test on her really well..
I'm not trying to be su'uzon with those around me, but i develop, a skill, (not to be proud, naudzubillah), to interpret people view on my. Thats why i try to avoid talking in public, cause i know, when i talk to them, what they tend to think of me..

hu~

I need to strive for this wed paper..
no more whining please!
hammy, i need to touch n feel the softness of ur fur..huhu~ missing the animals...

O Allah, i hope u would bear my whining n ungrateful feeling that i tend to develop..im really trying to improve myself here. Help me out here O Allah..
Your Guidance, is what i really need.

10 June 2007

Today im going crazy I guess
Tension x tentu pasal
Bukan sebab study
May b sebab kesalahan sendri-yg embawa kepada penyakit hati
I tried to seek for His Guidance alone, in the cold night…it was… cool!?
Guees so, to have a Creator who’s alyaws watch over you/
Im sorry that I did not smile to my sisters today.. I guess, im afraid they’ll know im having major problem, but tried to hide it. That’s the problem. Im not a person who could talk bout my problem n feeling s straight to someone else. Hey, but I could be a good listener..
My eja in m’sia is groing chubbier.. Yeay!im happy bout that
Owh..how I miss to play with cats..They’ll play with me no matter what my feelings are at that time.
I need to try to get some sleep. I tried to study but it was unsuccessful.!

O Allah, take me to you, with the highest level of my faith to you….