30 October 2013

for the past few days my body decided refuse to function properly..

my left leg decided to be 'lazy' where now, i have trouble to walk as usual..

hm.. will this prob be long..?

i hope not..

o god, i seek refuge in you..hmm

21 September 2013

there is a person, whom i thought is my friend.. and when this friend ask me to tell my side of living, and promise to kept is a secret.. so i told this friend..

but unfortunately, this friend told to another person.. with the reason, the other person is my 'senior', so the other person should know..

BUT is this honest!!!!!?

is this the kind of honesty one should have with a person who had trusted the person..?

why and why did i trust that 'friend'..?

i though when a friendship is bond, the honesty should have been tied in as well!!!

apparently not for this person..

from now on, i'll never trust this person again. NEVER!

06 July 2013


i have been wondering day by day..

from both of my parents, on of their outcome is me.. and my 2 other siblings..

but unfortunately for me, while my sis and bro both inhereted my parents looks and goodness, in terms of the attitude and intelligence

while for me, all the negative and down sides of lives, lay in me..

patience of my mum is in my sis and bro.. but the inpatients of my dad i lies in me..

the easy to be angered from my dad pass on to me..

the illness of what is called as the 'runner knee' that my mum have starting few years back, is not attacking my knees, at an early age, half of my mum's..

i know i can change my attitude... but the thing is, the feeling of easily angered is something i can't control on.. and causing me to speak without thinking the good and the bad..