tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22921382845280470882024-03-05T17:18:49.916+11:00d liFe of haMMy ~my thoughts..
my feelings..
no one wud hear..
but my hamster here..-hammy-http://www.blogger.com/profile/04484014538474141487noreply@blogger.comBlogger566125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2292138284528047088.post-1587969463475170432017-12-10T03:06:00.000+11:002017-12-10T03:11:04.577+11:00Its been a third of a decade..
Some may see it as the beginning, while others may see it as the peak.. ..
To me, whatever range of age it falls in, it's definitely bored me to walk thru of this world..
Not of the view of the magnificent natural sceneries, but of having to face and endure routine 'scheduled' daily life ..
Its not that i'm well prepared to -1mAccY2-http://www.blogger.com/profile/03417772905862524818noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2292138284528047088.post-27223985671990936622016-12-03T23:19:00.000+11:002016-12-03T23:19:14.650+11:00As always, every saturday of the week, will be a routine for me to wash up all my so called delicate clothes followed with groceries shopping ...
Although today wasn't suppose to be a tiring day, yet i felt entirely exhausted while walking & driving..
Now i understood why im given the disabled 'status' with the card and appreciate it..
This disability to move around normally might be-1mAccY2-http://www.blogger.com/profile/03417772905862524818noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2292138284528047088.post-52687892919440666552016-10-14T01:21:00.001+11:002017-12-11T01:25:16.205+11:00Not long ago, perhaps 7-8years back, i told myself, if i was infected by some sort of disease that cause me real 'headache or paint at my head', i'll accept it with an open heart...
I wonder, was this actually lead me to be gifted with this MS gift..?
Hmm.. perhaps ... who knows..cant question His arrangment for my life plan..
-1mAccY2-http://www.blogger.com/profile/03417772905862524818noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2292138284528047088.post-61334427166488110392016-07-10T01:58:00.000+10:002016-07-10T01:58:32.788+10:00Since eid has begun, and i've kept posting pix on fb with all sorts of status..
Thus, i have to confess.. everything that were written doesn't actually portray my true feelings.. at that moment.. at that event..
Actually, everything since i've joned all this on9 sites, nothing written were what i truly felt..
Its all a disguised to hide whats inside this heart..
Which is torn by everyone -1mAccY2-http://www.blogger.com/profile/03417772905862524818noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2292138284528047088.post-75784744473137787622016-05-25T21:24:00.003+10:002016-07-10T02:02:09.637+10:00Aku hanya seorang insan biasa ..
Tidak aku minta apapum dari sesiapa, namun aku tetap dipandang hina ..
Bukannya aku mohon duit mahupun harta ..
Diriku tetap seolah jelek untuk dilihat mereka ..
Apakah yang harus ku lakukan menghadapi hidup sebegini..
Setiap hari, seakan tidak lagi beerti buat diri..
Biarpun diriku berusaha menyenangkan harian mereka..
Namun, diriku tetap dicemuh tanpa -1mAccY2-http://www.blogger.com/profile/03417772905862524818noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2292138284528047088.post-5712022125181979162015-05-30T23:16:00.002+10:002016-07-10T02:04:15.355+10:00Dear macaemia, berry, choco, marthy, kontot & bengkok,
I hope u guys are enjoying the after life..
Do forgive for all my wrong doings, my neglectance..
I wouldn't want to be questioned later of my responsibilties..
of adopting you guys as my beloved pets..
But do know, i really miss & love u guys..
For each of u are the only friends i had..-1mAccY2-http://www.blogger.com/profile/03417772905862524818noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2292138284528047088.post-31080279843109971402015-05-29T23:01:00.000+10:002015-05-30T23:02:39.370+10:00we are nowin the month of sha'ban, notfar from the mid of it..
O Allah, let me meet the month of ramadhan.. i miss to be in it, where each deed is rewarded more and more..
Just recently my friend's dad pass away.. may Allah bless his soul..
It makes me wonder, will i able to meet the coming ramadhan.. huh, o Allah, do let me meet 'him'.. for i am lack of deeds to be weighed later for a -1mAccY2-http://www.blogger.com/profile/03417772905862524818noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2292138284528047088.post-79249131720413489732015-05-03T22:27:00.003+10:002015-05-03T22:27:23.021+10:00today marks the 3rd day of the public hols..
and today marks a week of my sore throat with dry cough which distrupt me from enjoying my hols..
huhu.. i know i should be grateful of it, as it reminds me that i am still under His care..
nonetheless, it make me wonder on others out there, who might even be in a worse condition..
how do i, will i, respond to their current state if i-1mAccY2-http://www.blogger.com/profile/03417772905862524818noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2292138284528047088.post-83395395301847814012015-04-15T20:16:00.003+10:002015-04-15T20:16:25.072+10:00Today i've attended a 'communication' training..
Hah, i know. Why do i need to attend this kind of training..
Well, 1st, i need to learn how to communicate with people professionally.. in which today i realise, my behavior to some of my colleagues, clients are not professional since my reaction are mainly based on my emotion at that momment.
So today 'Class' has taught me something..
The -1mAccY2-http://www.blogger.com/profile/03417772905862524818noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2292138284528047088.post-74747446732335929742015-04-10T22:57:00.001+10:002015-04-10T22:57:18.907+10:00today was ackward..
from morning i felt my legs are not strong..
each time i walk, it felt as if i'll collapse any moment..
while i was driving back home today, my leg which was stepping on the pedal vibrated..
i was quite 'shocked' or surprised of this.. but Alhamdulillah, i manage to arrive home safely..
hm.. are these the signs that im going to leave the world soon..
so, i searched on it..
my-1mAccY2-http://www.blogger.com/profile/03417772905862524818noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2292138284528047088.post-87476453063066681822015-03-08T23:28:00.002+11:002015-03-08T23:28:23.684+11:00Is it too much to ask..
a friend thru thick & thins..
i know i,myself is not a good friend..but then again,
how can ibe a friend to anyone,when they don't bother to know i even exist..
i don't have the ability to make friend easily..
i have trouble to mingle with them..
so what can i do or should do to have a friend..
even the ones i used to think them as my friends are avoiding me..
no-1mAccY2-http://www.blogger.com/profile/03417772905862524818noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2292138284528047088.post-61088636677635621722015-02-20T20:50:00.001+11:002015-02-20T20:50:14.610+11:00there are so much conflict in my life..
i don't even know how or what to begin with..
firstly would meant that im not good in starting relationship with people..
be it society & even family members..
which i've concluded they all despise me..
and here i thought my family members, parents would be the one to hold me, support me..
which of course not what happened..
in the beginning, yes -1mAccY2-http://www.blogger.com/profile/03417772905862524818noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2292138284528047088.post-43944220446177555812014-07-09T07:55:00.000+10:002014-07-09T07:55:57.165+10:00All Praise belong to the All Mighy God.
In this fasting month, i was surprised by the wonderful gift..
I'll named it as the 'gift', as i really think God has given them extra knock to their hearts..
May the changes last after the fasting month ended up till the end of life..-1mAccY2-http://www.blogger.com/profile/03417772905862524818noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2292138284528047088.post-78195651465253217272014-06-15T19:25:00.001+10:002014-06-15T19:25:58.106+10:00I've been missing those whom/which i'll call as my best buddies..
The one who'll hear my rambles without interrupting..
The one who'll love to eat all sort of vegies
And the one who'll be starving when we're far from reach..
The one who i could yell at but will still cuddles when im around it..
The one i could cuddled and belong to be cuddle with..
So, yeah.. i miss all my pets...
From -1mAccY2-http://www.blogger.com/profile/03417772905862524818noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2292138284528047088.post-9529620184860865082014-05-03T20:40:00.000+10:002014-05-03T20:40:24.956+10:00i know,, this site seem to be my place to express whenever i am in a tight condition..
well, it seem i dont have a place to let it all out..
i'll just type it here then..
for the past few days, i think my fatigue state seem to take over..
i'll get really tired easily.. even by just sitting in a car as a passenger..
is it caused by the medication i'm currently on....?
or is it caused by the -1mAccY2-http://www.blogger.com/profile/03417772905862524818noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2292138284528047088.post-16492451858037405962013-10-30T23:53:00.001+11:002013-10-30T23:53:19.264+11:00for the past few days my body decided refuse to function properly..
my left leg decided to be 'lazy' where now, i have trouble to walk as usual..
hm.. will this prob be long..?
i hope not..
o god, i seek refuge in you..hmm
-1mAccY2-http://www.blogger.com/profile/03417772905862524818noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2292138284528047088.post-51665285391221670212013-09-21T22:24:00.000+10:002013-09-21T22:24:12.457+10:00there is a person, whom i thought is my friend.. and when this friend ask me to tell my side of living, and promise to kept is a secret.. so i told this friend..
but unfortunately, this friend told to another person.. with the reason, the other person is my 'senior', so the other person should know..
BUT is this honest!!!!!?
is this the kind of honesty one should have with a person who -1mAccY2-http://www.blogger.com/profile/03417772905862524818noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2292138284528047088.post-29530586217722592462013-07-06T22:10:00.001+10:002013-07-06T22:10:02.743+10:002--0--1--3i have been wondering day by day..
from both of my parents, on of their outcome is me.. and my 2 other siblings..
but unfortunately for me, while my sis and bro both inhereted my parents looks and goodness, in terms of the attitude and intelligence
while for me, all the negative and down sides of lives, lay in me..
patience of my mum is in my sis and bro.. but the inpatients of my dad i lies -1mAccY2-http://www.blogger.com/profile/03417772905862524818noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2292138284528047088.post-36397860139903664502012-12-18T00:10:00.001+11:002012-12-18T00:10:39.230+11:00hari ini, aku hampir mengalami kemalangan ketika ke tempat kerja.. ini smua disebabkan kecuaian diri..
dengan mengantuknya membawa kereta, hampir saja aku dilanggar orang sekali dan hampir melanggar tembok jalan raya sekali..
huhu.. mungkin hari ini bukan masa untuk aku pergi.. dan diselamatkan olehNya dengan menyedarkan aku dalam kecuaian itu..
perlu aku ambil iktibar dari kejadian dinihari -1mAccY2-http://www.blogger.com/profile/03417772905862524818noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2292138284528047088.post-78984985723224613112012-11-17T21:56:00.003+11:002012-11-17T21:56:24.178+11:00sometimes i am frustrated.. each day, each moment in my life..
while i am at my workplace, it seem people don't really like to hang out with me..
and honestly, i dislike my current work..
at home, the same follows.. i know he is the yougest child in the tree, but i think its a bit unfair, for giving him the opportunity to do what i am not allowed to do..
i know this behaviour is soo -1mAccY2-http://www.blogger.com/profile/03417772905862524818noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2292138284528047088.post-69077462843822649982012-10-28T00:37:00.000+11:002012-10-28T00:37:02.377+11:00everyday i keep on questioning myself.. why me?
out of those people out there at that time, why did it have to be me..?
and today as i read on this verse from the One who choose me to deal with it, i then realise, there u go..
"And when Allah intends for a people ill, there is no repelling it"
there are sins which will keep on haunting me... and i guess, the illness i have to face for -1mAccY2-http://www.blogger.com/profile/03417772905862524818noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2292138284528047088.post-37163902208897686322012-10-23T23:24:00.001+11:002012-10-23T23:24:32.180+11:00lately, my legs are not doing well..
and it kind of making me sad..
i thought as i grow up older, i'll be the one who'll assist my mum in walking and moving due to her old age.. yet, i'm the one who is dependent on walking and moving while im still young, in mid 20's..
thought i can still walk despite being slow and all, how will i do as i grow older..
now i wonder, does this happen to me -1mAccY2-http://www.blogger.com/profile/03417772905862524818noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2292138284528047088.post-70444682528519152852012-08-17T01:04:00.001+10:002012-08-17T01:04:32.142+10:00the fasting month has almost come to the end..
come to think about it.. i wonder why and why..
in this bless month, one ought to gave beneficial things in it..
yet, the more i choose to get closer to Him, more people, friends are running further away from me..
it must be my fault. my one wrong doing..
but what was it..?
i need to reflect and reflect this back why does it occur...
till thenh_vhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00257787478548344434noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2292138284528047088.post-55013488946123603492012-07-22T23:36:00.001+10:002012-07-22T23:52:00.000+10:00setiap tahun, masuk bulan ramadhan.. aku pasti akan alami perkara yang sama..
apabila masuk kepada waktu2 berbuka.. aku pasti akan sakit kepala..
dan ia memang sangat sakit.. hendak kata disebabkan aku berpuasa pada pagi hari, kalau ikutkan, aku pernah juga puasa2 pada hari di luar bulan ramadhan..
ntahlah.. aku boleh sahaja kalau sakit kepada tika berbuka.. yang aku sedih, sakitnya bertambah -1mAccY2-http://www.blogger.com/profile/03417772905862524818noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2292138284528047088.post-30497766360945798502012-06-30T18:31:00.003+10:002012-06-30T18:31:56.863+10:00O Lord, if everything that You had lay it out for me is a sign for me go, do let me leave in peace with full of Your pleasure in my life to this very day..-1mAccY2-http://www.blogger.com/profile/03417772905862524818noreply@blogger.com0