16 June 2010

kadangkala.. di kala kita tgh free, ader masa lapang..
mesti x terkuar idea2 utk melakar.. menulis..

dan juga saat kena hantar assignment yg urgent.. mesti x der masa nk meenulis2 benda2 yg x berkaitan...

tp, di saat masa itu MCM pjg.. (macam je la),
cth, assignment to be submit in 2 weeks time.. so, 2 week tu mcm pjg, so leh rilek2 lagi..

ataupun di saat swot vac nk exam, especially biler paper kita tu yg kat2 akhir exam week, lagi la time tu timbul bermacam2 idea utk menulis..

it seem as if keadaan 'tertekan' tu inspire the mind to think more,
more than we are suppose to focus to that moment..

mungkin, ni juga yg telah berlaku kt aku..

i realize, i tend to write often when im stress out..

and now i know, nape aku x leh nk give full concentration in lectures, tutes..
tp biler aku free, x pk ape2, time tu aku leh focus in doin things..
which i guess, rarely d case of what i've been experiencing back then..
sbb otak aku ni nk dipenuhi dgn macam2 olahan dunia..
dgn mslh K+P+S
makes me toO much out of 'gear' when the motor needs to run..

ok, n now.. brade di situasi krjya, pengolahan aku sudah berbeza..

sometimes i dont know how to react, what to do..

cth:
klu aku nk attend Prog'...need to avoid saying it directly to my mum..
which i will say, sort of menipu..
and i hate lying..
some will say, bukan menipu, sbb tgk la cmne care ghlam bermuslihat pada guru dan pada ibu dier..
but, i still cant take it.. aku mcm dh menipu.. mmg mula2 rase cm cuak2.. tapi aku takut, lame2 jadi mcm satu 'habit' to 'lie' sehingga kan nnt nk 'menipu' org len pn dh x rase ape..

huhu..ok...
i think im goin of da topic here..
well, its my Blg, suke ati la nk tulih ape..
huh~

peNoFf

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