kelesuan selepas mujahadah adalah kerana kesilapan langkah pertama..!!

BACK OFF ysn!!!
u re indeed useless!!!!!!!!!!
its all a lie!
they make as it seem u r a daie..
but in reality.. there are just making u as supportor, n not d mover !!!!

dah2..tok sah pikir pasal mereka..

fikir pasal kepentingan umat!
byk lagi cara lain yg ko boleh buat untuk berdwh kepada masyarakat..!
x perlu ko tunggu diberi kejer dulu.. keje yg diberi pun smua teknikal jer...
mmg la wat mech eng.. kt uni keje ngan mesin.. dwh pun suh keje ngan mesin ker..
x berkembang langsung.

Ya Rahman.. Ya Allah..
berikanlah diriku furqan yang sebenar2nya..
diriku ni sekarang tengah dalam dilema.. dalam kerunsingan..
jauhkan aku dari tertarik pada permainan dunia..
bantulah diri untuk ikhlas dalam beramal..
bersungguh dalam setiap gerak langkah..

im no longer among them.. let me take u as my only companion..
the one i should only call to.. Allah..

forgive me..
:'(

ya Allah..
mlm smlm ramai plak tetibe tny aku ni ader mslh ke ..
ok ke x..

aku perlu luputkan diri dari ingatan akhawat..
aku x nak kt akhirat nnt, bila diorg smu masuk syurga, tny aku kt mane..
aku malu klu smua ingt aku, n tau yang aku ni bukan ahli syurga..
sgt2 malu...
luputkan aku dari ingatan mereka kat dunia.. spy kat akhirat nnt mereka x ingt kt aku dah

mengarut

tick tock.. tick tock..

round d upfront clock..

its never ever hasten..

and delay is not what it hold..

once its gone..

it'll never turn back..

nor matter how hard one run..

it'll never be in the graps of this hands..

for its a precious tresure..

that keeps on blooming from beneath..

and uprise upwards..

when one does not take it fast ..

it'll just release from it steams..

and to the heaven it goes...

and its is the time..

what one has kept on ignore..

this morning, after i peeled of the plasters.. it looks really horror..
like ive been abused by someone.. or else, im a drug addict..
hoho.. hopefully im not being examined by any authority
but i can see my signature on my arm.. cool.

FORGIVE me ALLAH..
ive must have loose my mind when i decided to do this..
im gonna try avoid doing it anymore in the future..insyaAllah..

mentally not okay ke pebenda..

dah x rase sakit mengukir dengan pisau dan jarum di tangan kiri nie..

tapi.. biler dh lame2 br sakit... skang nk gerak tangan kiri pun susah..

yet it seems i could not stop..

mcm best jer...

yup..

i carving on it more and more.. but most of it is just lines and dots..

x der idea nk lukis aper...

maybe i should change my course to art work..

at least ader proper place to convey my art..

muahahaahahhahahaahaaa!!!!!!!!!

Your score is: 49

The likelihood that you have major or clinical depression is high.

You should see a trained health professional to confirm the diagnosis and discuss what treatment might be best for you. Some people with depression begin to feel that nothing will make them feel better. This is an expected feeling when you are depressed. You need to talk with someone about how depression is treated today and learn more about the large number of people like yourself who have recovered.