have we ever wonder why bees needle sting..?
producing the sweetest honey in it hive, its needle convey it otherwise..
the sweet endeavoring honey is in fact the best medcine for many kind of diseases.. its clearly stated in the kalamullah it self..

"And your Lord inspired the bees, saying: "Take you habitations in the mountains and in the trees and in what they erect. "Then, eat of all fruits, and follow the ways of your Lord made easy (for you)." There comes forth from their bellies, a drink of varying colour wherein is healing for men. Verily, in this is indeed a sign for people who think."(an-Nahl:68-69)

i) for every 'poison', there is a cure.. the bees needles sting, but it was stated in the Quran, for it, there's a medicine to it (honey) be it naturally produced or made in the lab by mankind.. (medcine).
ii) the goodness of eating fruits are conveyed here by Allah Taála hinted on the bees to eat 'all fruits' and at the same time follow / obey His order.. which means, one can't expect to gain the benefit of something by just following 1 rule if there is in fact 2 rule to gain for success..

"And when I am ill, it is He Who cures me; (80) "Who will cause me to die, and then to live (again); (81) "And Who, I hope will forgive me my faults on the Day of Judgment… (82) O my Lord! Bestow wisdom on me, and join me with the righteous; (83) "Grant me honourable mention on the tongue of truth among the latest (generations); (84) "Make me one of the inheritors of the Garden of Bliss;"(asy-Syu'ara(26))

for this i put my trust in Him..for the unbearable pain in my head.. i hope it'll cure my heart from the sickness of this world..
and for the day when i'll rise up once again after i moved on, i hope this sickness will be one of the reason for you to erase the sins i've done.. bet it intentionally or unintentionally..
put me then to be among the righteous one..

Grant me honorable mention on the tongue of truth among the latest (generations) & please make me one of the inheritors of the Garden of Bliss;.'


amin ya rabbal alamin..~
please hear me.. Ameen~

adey... why do i feel this way.. help me my Lord, to choose the decision..
to stay on or to raid it off.. huhu

given by my friend, sis this song.. luve it.. and luve her for it..

""
Come stop your crying
It will be all right
Just take my hand Hold it tight

I will protect you
from all around you
I will be here
Don't you cry

For one so small,
you seem so strong
My arms will hold you,
keep you safe and warm
This bond between us
Can't be broken
I will be here
Don't you cry

'Cause you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more

You'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be here in my heart, always

Why can't they understand
the way we feel
They just don't trust
what they can't explain
I know we're different but,
deep inside us
We're not that different at all

And you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more

Don't listen to them
'Cause what do they know
We need each other,
to have, to hold
They'll see in time
I know

When destiny calls you
You must be strong
I may not be with you
But you've got to hold on
They'll see in time
I know
We'll show them together

'Cause you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on,
Now and forever more

Oh, you'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be in my heart, always
Always
""

In the early online edition of the journal Biological Psychiatry, it was published that brain atrophy causes depression in multiple sclerosis patients

Reading this made me look back at my mri, after a couple of months suspected of having MS..

well, there are few lesions in my brain.. and yes, there's some at the place which was said to cause depression...

so, i must be depressed at that time because of the lesion attack here..

2 weeks ago..
i went to the 'lab'to do my mRi scan..
and 2day got the result..

it wasnt bad in my opinion.. but the doc said, its not good
and suggested me for 2nd degree treatment..
which mean, a more risk treatment.. for cancer patients i think..

bcoz of the highly cost treatment, i was requested by my mum to get into ozzie..
as there are more treatment there compare to this country..

ntahlah...

ya Rabbi.. my trust & faith lies in U..

i think i can diagnosed my headache attack..

when i'm stressed on a thing on someone, the back of my head will start to pulse painfully..

and that what happen 2day..~

i used to be caffeine addict..
a cup of coffee a day is a must (minimum)..
and back in those days, i can drink several cups of coffee and still sleep soundly..
and last year, my aim was to stop my coffee addiction after 6 years..
which was quite difficult at the beginning..
but by the end of last year, i manage to stop drinking coffee..
also avoid drinking chocolate drink as i found out chocolate also has caffiene in it..

until this evening.. i finally break my record.. by taking a cup of cuppucino..
i'll have to see whether i'm still immune to caffiene or not..
immune in a sense i can sleep peacefully and soundly without difficulty..

if there is a glass ball in the palm of my hand..
then my body is as such the ball just crush when it land
if the rainbow race across after the rain..
then my soul that was once died, now feel to beats again..
in the darkness of the night,shine the gleaming moon..
and the sun rise high, why its now noon..