everyday i keep on questioning myself.. why me?

out of those people out there at that time, why did it have to be me..?

and today as i read on this verse from the One who choose me to deal with it, i then realise, there u go..

"And when Allah intends for a people ill, there is no repelling it"

there are sins which will keep on haunting me... and i guess, the illness i have to face for my entire lifetime is a punishment of the sins i've commited..

yet, i keep on trying to improve myself of not making more sins, yet the pain will be the one to keep on haunting me..

give me strength my Lord..